grrrrr.

another gorgeous day here in the northeast, thank god it seems that spring is here to stay - and NO MORE cold weather, no more awful-ness. i am still weary, until we get a full week of nice-ness. :)

i, on the other hand, am not feeling so nice. have a wedding this weekend that i am a bridesmaid in, and unfortunately the dress is VERY snug. making this week even MORE important for dieting, working out and not drinking during the week. unfortunately, a side effect of this ill-fitting dress is one of overindulgence - where i want to give myself everything in LARGE quantities to soothe my feelings. but i know this is wrong, so i will be extra cranky while i eat 2 grapes, 10 coffees and 400 bottles of water while working my ass off at the gym. god dammit. i can't wait to workout for ME and not some stupid unflattering ball gown bridesmaid dress. AGAIN - reason #598437594386 why my wedding will ROCK and my bridesmaid dresses will ROCK and be so totally NOT any of the shit i've gone through in the last year. dont get me wrong, i love my friends - i dont always love their choices in wedding fashion.

oh, and thank god for PMS making me feel even PRETTIERRRRRRRRR this week.... all climaxing probably saturday morning when i go to put on this dress and i really wish i were wearing a muu-muu.

i need to get fresh air now.

cranky-ville. population, 1.