im special

here are a few things about me: [since we're practically strangers and all]

• i really love being in bed. i dont think i take enough advantage of this anymore. getting older really is annoying with all the rules, responsibilities and "appointments"
• i am now constantly worried about my weight. but i dont go to any crazy lengths to get "super skinny", although it has crossed my mind. i love food too much to do it
• i am a hypochondriac and always think the worse when i get 1 little symptom
• i have been dreaming of moving to a warmer state for as long as i can remember... but i am afraid i might never get the courage to do it
• i would still sleep with my childhood stuffed animal/blanket if D didnt get so "mad" about it [its really the disapproving 'youre older than this' face i get that makes me not want to]
• i can't do math to save my life. simple addition takes me a few seconds to process. dont even get me started on fractions, long division, percentages
• i hate backhanded insults disguised as compliments
• i am obsessed with celebrities, celebrity gossip, magazines, websites and the like. i can't get enough and i dont feel bad about it.
• i get very jealous. but in a secret way. about lots of things
• im an only child
• i like doing things to make other people happy & feel good but i get secretly upset when no one ever does anything nice like that for me
• my hair has probably been every length and color and style ... except curly. never curly. i just cant get there
• i dont think i could ever bring myself to buy a $175 pair of jeans
• im always waiting to "lose a few pounds" before buying something ive been wanting
• i really want an engagement ring but i am scared about actually being married
• i hate talking on the phone A LOT
• I love the taste of coffee
• as part of my weight loss routine i have decided to cut out drinking during the week. good on my budget, good on my belly fat, bad when all i really want is a nice glass of wine :(
• im very paranoid about my underarm odor [or lack thereof, again... hypochondria]
• i tend to stare at old mens packages especially when they are sitting down
• i love everything bagels with cream cheese & tomato, toasted

there are a few things to wet your whistle... or whatever the saying is.

more later.