t minus 3 days... i hope

Now im not gonna get all wishy-washy on you and whine and cry about how much I am missing D and how life is not the same without him here to do all my everyday activities…. BUT IT SUCKS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

The week before kind of dragged on without him at the apartment – it was weird to do all the things I normally do WITH him… without him. But I persevered, and by Friday it was time to go..

I went to Texas to visit him on Friday and we had an amazing weekend together. It was nothing short of perfect. We didn’t fight [except when we got cranky over food and snapped once], we laughed, ate delicious food, snuggled, watched Food network, and generally just loved each other so much it hurt.

We went to White Sands, NM – and it was freaking amazing. Definitely an excellent memory to have. Now we are crazy for travel and decided we need to visit more national parks and see more beautiful things like Yellowstone park, and the grand canyon. One of the best things about being with D is that all the things I want to see in the world, he has never seen before – so we get to explore them together, instead of him already seeing things and saying “ehh maybe another time”. It’s great. Well I can’t say none of the places… I want to go to California SO BAD but he’s been and says its overrated. Our only place of agreement is Napa Valley, and I think we have agreed to do a wine tour for our 30th birthdays – only 4 more years to save for that! Hahaha

Right now things are up in the air as far as him coming home is concerned. As of Friday he was scared that they might not be done with the work he was sent for, and that may mean he would have to stay until its done – through the Labor Day weekend! [this equals me NOT being happy]. But last night they told him they would most likely be done with all the testing by tonight, and finish up Wednesday and Thursday. THAT makes me happy :) very. So fingers crossed and all goes well, I will be back with him FOR GOOD on Friday at 2am!!!!

OH and my parents are gone too and I’m dog sitting, which is all well & good – but now I have more responsibility (watering plants, picking tomatoes, watching said dog) and I’m not in my home in my own routine – it’s different and better, not the same old thing, looking at his stuff and missing him. And now I know where he is and I can have a mental picture of it all so it’s just a bit better. (not much, but some)

So I bought myself a new purse to bring up my mood a bit. I hope it wasn’t a rash decision, but I think I love it - yay!

so happy! sorry im sickening.

So by this point (Friday) I’ve calmed down a little bit – I mean, don’t get me wrong, I am THRILLED, but after sitting at work all day on Thursday not doing a BIT of work, I had to put that aside for a little bit and actually try to do something! I think one of the best parts is my mother. Not that I ever thought she wouldn’t be excited for us, I just didn’t realize she would be SO into it!! On day 1 she was already sending links, ideas, locations, etc – all day long!! Originally we wanted to do a destination wedding [bad]. Neither me or D are the ‘typical Jersey bullshit’ wedding types. There will be no big nasty ‘hall’ somewhere, gaudy and over-done. No way. So we thought escaping to an island, partying and getting married on the beach was perfect for us. We love the beach, we live there – its just really our laid-back style. But the more we looked into it, the more we realized as much as we didn’t want 250 people there, we probably wouldn’t even have the people there that we DID want. It was just too much. And I said from the beginning, we need to see if the pro’s outweigh the con’s. if it looks like more bad then good, then we will have to adjust accordingly. So as we looked into Bermuda it just didn’t seem do-able. Then, my wonderful mother sends me a link of a cool idea in Newport [our second choice]. It was PERFECT for us!! The company is a clambake caterer – and we’re basically planning our wedding around that. We all love the idea, and it is perfectly us. Not fussy, not to chic, just FUN. It’s served on china, under a beautiful tent outside, where we get married right there (hopefully – we are meeting there on Sept 10 to make a final choice), and then dance and party the night away. It’s all falling into place and I am SO freakin excited. Its really great that D is from RI too, because its fun for us, my parents (and us) LOVE Newport, but it is also a bit of a reference to his upbringing. I’m just so happy and can’t wait!!
I mean if there was no mom, I don’t know if I would have ANYTHING done.

Now I just need to stress out, lose some weight and make it through the next year.

And DAMMIT. D is away on travel for work for the next 2 WEEKS!!!!!!!!! This doesn’t seem fair to me! But I am going there to visit him on Friday, so I really only have 4 nights of sleeping alone to handle until then. I CAN DO IT. Although I have to say I feel really lonely already and I haven’t even been home yet!!

continued...

August 1 – Part 2

So after we freak out a bit – we go back to the house to start calling everyone we know. My parents happen to be nearby – “coincidence” I’m sure – so I call them first and squeal and yell and they say they’ll be right over. We call a few friends, but then wait for them, and they stay about an hour, we drink 2 bottles of champagne, and just go on and on and on about all this stuff. Just so freaking exciting! Even my DAD has a smile ear to ear – since he originally told D “No” when he asked [kidding of course]. He mumbled something about guns, and then said “okay” hahaha gotta love my dad, the cutest. So after they left around 9:45 – we drank some more, called everyone else we wanted to tell, and were just GIDDY! It was such a great night. But by the time it was bedtime I was READY. We passed out, and the next day was my BIRTHDAY----


WHO CARES?!?!


August 2

So my birthday was all well & good – it was a blur of 1,000,000 emails, phone calls, and texts – thank you D for single-handedly making all my friends care more about me then they have in a long long time! So the day FLEW by, and we headed up to my parents house for a planned birthday dinner out at our favorite restaurant in their town. C came in from the city and she was THRILLED for us. I was stunned at her reaction – but genuinely happy for the way she acted. She only turned it into something about her when she was mad that D didn’t share his plans with her about what he was going to do, or ring shopping or anything. But hello – he CLEARLY didn’t need your help – and clearly not from someone who doesn’t really know me anymore anyway. So anyway, we had a really nice dinner full of food & lots of wine – then went back for cake & presents. I still love that shit, even at 25! Lots of great stuff, including new camera, travel bag, money, beautiful framed pictures, a various other little things. It was a great night! i am just SO LUCKY and floating on cloud 9!

an honest woman

So since I have been MIA since the big proposal I thought I would try to break things down in a few sections to keep it interesting. Not that I am interesting but there is a lot to tell ...

August 1 – Part 1

Had work, per usual. Decided to go get a mani/pedi after work to treat myself for my birthday, and it took FOR-EV-ER, normally I’m in and out within an hour – this time they didn’t even see me for an hour. Little do I know that D is at home chomping at the bit waiting for me. So I do my thing, and come home for my delicious pre-birthday meal. D is waiting, and says ‘let’s go walk on the beach before we eat’. I think nothing of it since we like to do that to unwind after work, talk and enjoy the beach. We go out walking, BS’ing about the day, about his work thing he had going on, and it was just perfect. Beautiful weather, warm water, soft sand, etc. We’re on our way back and I’m bitching about how one of my friends doesn’t seem to be caring about my upcoming birthday and I’m feeling snubbed and D starts trailing behind me. I don’t really notice as I am wrapped in my story (as per usual) and I turn around and he’s looking at the sand, near the jetty. I start to walk over there like “what the hell are you doing” and he’s like ooh look at this shell – acting very strange, not making eye contact, just NOT him. So I turn to look and he’s on one knee.


HOLY SHIT… he’s really doing it right here!!

So he’s down and he’s looking up at me and he’s silent – like he’s forgotten what he wanted to say, and I’m shaking and excited and just want him to do it! So he tells me how he’s loved me since the minute he first saw me freshman year of college - etc etc – and so of course, I say “OF COURSE” and he says “wait…do I put it on or do you??” “YOU DO YOU DO!! DO IT!!” I’m so excited I thought I was gonna pass out!! So we’re screaming and jumping, hugging, kissing and laughing. So a couple is walking and they come over and say “good job man – congratulations, that was great!” and we sit down he says “I HAVE SO MUCH TO TELL YOU!!!” so we dish – and he tells me all about asking my parents, keeping it a secret from me, about how he picked up the ring while we were home & went to Newport, etc, and how scared he was I was going to reach in his pocket and grab it or something. I was buzzing..

OH!!!

and THE RING IS PERFECT!!!!!!!

So freaking freaking perfect. Just the right size, perfect for my hand, my style, everything. I was SO impressed – it’s sad that I actually thought I may not like what he would come up with, but I do – I loooooooooove it. I STILL can’t stop staring at it! [god, I’m gushing – but I’m allowed to, give me my moment!]

SUPER SEXY BIRTHDAY

I TAKE IT ALL BACK!!!!!!!!!!!!!

WE'RE ENGAGED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

phenominal.

moving right along, skinny style

We’re down to the wire. Tomorrow at this time I will be 25.

Moving on, let’s see what’s happening in my world as of now. Have started “5-Factor Fitness” and I’m loooooving it. My whole body hurts, which is something that hasn’t happened in ages. The workouts are short, intense and leave me feeling like I accomplished something. I don’t have to live for over an hour at the gym. I eat 5 small-ish meals a day, and never really feel that hungry. This is definitely something I can stick to. Unfortunately the next 2 days are a wash, as tonight I have to go get a manicure and pedicure [yes I “have” to], then D is making me a gorgeous dinner, and tomorrow is my birthday and we’re going out after work. SooOo that doesn’t really leave a lot of time for the gym. BUT since it only takes 25 minutes I plan to go after work Friday before we do anything that night. So I’m committed to this. And I’m doing it. For real I am going to lose weight, get toned & keep it that way!!!!

I’m gassy. Crap. Another long day of work, I guess I should get to it.

I think I’m going to buy myself a birthday outfit today at lunch [if I find something…]

I love treating myself!!!! :)