2.26.2007

Gross.

Dear Old Men at work,
When i walk by your bathroom headed to the women's.. please do not unzip your fly and begin to 'pull out' before the door is shut behind you. There is an impressionable 'young' girl behind you who doesnt want to envision you without clothes.

Thanks,
Management.



2.09.2007

42 B

i'm growing quite concerned i dont know my bra size and i keep wasting money on these things that DONT FIT RIGHT. but i always have that "maybe ill just lose a few pounds" idea in my head, and so i never get adequately measured, and so the cycle continues. my last set of bras were worn out to the point that they just didnt stay up anymore. the straps were CONSTANTLY falling down. i was convinced my body isnt meant to handle a bra. i have sloped shoulders. i'm a freak. something. but no, i am a loser i dont buy bras and they were OLD.



maybe i should invest in one of these:

its like a freaking girdle bra.
i dont even know. i DO know i need to go get measured. ASAP.
maybe once i get back to the gym consistently. i dont want to keep making excuses. but arent you supposed to have comfort AND style??






whatever the case is, it could be worse.

2.02.2007

the trendy yellow.

you know that butterflies feeling you get when youre nervous, or excited or something?? i tend to get that just for fun, during the day at work - like something big and crazy is gonna happen to me... when all i must really be excited for is that kick-ass salad i made, or stopping at CVS after work. does that make sense? i mean i love shopping at CVS, Rite Aid, Eckerd, Drug Fair, Duane Reade, Walgreen's like NO ONE else, it is like a high to me. but butterflies? its like an all-encompassing feeling that sometimes makes me feel nauseous [which i absolutely LOATHE].

that's right. there is nothing worse on earth then feeling nauseous. i realize now as i am getting older that hangovers really tend to KICK MY ASS no matter what i do - no matter how much water i consume, or how early i stop drinking or what. and FORGET a car ride. automatic throw-up time. forget it. i wish that was something that didnt happen to me. i would sleep till 4 every day after i drink, i would eat JUNK FOOD [i'm talking mcdonalds, and egg & cheese sandwiches, and velveeta, and doritos, and soda! and bagels with veggie cream cheese] but that is really never possible. i end up barfing, feeling like crap... and laying around wishing i were dead for 90% of the day, not eating until like 7pm and vowing to never drink again. it's laughable.

another thing i hate: my quiet office.
it's so freakin SUFFOCATING its so quiet. no one comes into my "wing" of the building, and its just silent. all i have to keep me company is my pandora internet radio.... [which still plays the same songs on repeat every day.. i wonder how much longer i can handle hearing these same 15 songs again & again. no patience.] i hate that i'll never have a "friend" here. i dont have 'work friends'. i have my boss... and everyone else just ANNOYS ME. i hate that stupid talk that goes on in offices. honestly, i have a better time by myself at my desk then i do standing here talking about your 13 year olds snow days and school projects. i dont know, maybe its because im only 25, but seriously - i hate hate hate small talk with work people. i think i just hate it in general, which is why i tend to not talk on the phone too much unless i have something to actually talk about.

i love a socialite's life. so freakin funny, the little stories and comments always make me laugh. can't even take it.

and i'm really diggin that yellow color for spring. which means that it will be on everyone and i will avoid it like the plague, b/c i hate being trendy. thankfully i bought a yellow sweater and wore it to NYE - which means i was 4 months ahead of the trend and when i start seeing it in my bff's closet i'll know its time to retire it for good.

p.s. i've stayed away from the GAP now for almost 2 full months. i kinda miss it.